9/21 WED

I wrote 20 letters today. That pretty much covers all the kids in AFS. Yesterday, I did 3 of ‘em, Marian, Nancy & Michelle.

Those letters weren’t for the “keeping in touch” that I did with the others: Marian’s was a light-hearted get well soon letter; Michelle’s was to let her know that someone does care; and Nancy’s scared me shitless.

I haven’t really thought of Nancy as my “friend” since we’ve been here. We hadn’t really talked, haven’t really trusted each other, and at orientation, she put me down at least once a day; that hurt.

So I wrote a pretty long (4 pg) letter explaining my feelings, and it leaves me wide open and exposed. I did some soul bearing, and that’s scary.

School hasn’t started and I’m still

BORED.

I know, “life is what you make of it”, but no matter what I try, I’m still bored.